Confessions of a bastard.

Okay , somehow i feel the need to write stuff. Maybe i am emo. Had futsal today . It was stupid , after being told there was a prize for 3rd place , then they changed it. I mean wtf. I guess i can hold my anger. Atleast i got to play and meet my old gang back again. They`ve improve immensely , football wise. But heck, we got to the semis , which was cool for a team banded 2 days ago. lol. I was pissed off at some budak poyo SJ who thinks he`s so pro at football and he owns everything. I was clearing the ball and made contact with him then he suddenly turn to the ref and started emo. Hahahah. Football ada body contact la cibai (: He then wanted revenge , so he pushed me while i had no possesion of the ball . Like wtf ? hahaha. But the part i most like when he was dribbling , i got to him and tackled him. Sedap bai tendang kaki keding dia :DDDD Soon i had no mood to watch the final cause my team lost. lol. So me and Azrul went to Suku and had maggi, had a few conversations. Haha. His mum came and i went home. When i got home, i went straight to on the internet. Thats where it all happen. I saw her posting a blog bout it. God, i feel like killing myself. I dont know what to do with her. I swear to god i love her so but it seems i just gotta let go. Sigh. I think i wont talk with her, see her , or even sms with her anymore. Probably block her or delete her. Why did i even meet with her.